In the mist of all the drama I decided to write. Here is a poem about Bella and how all the people in her life (Charlie, Rene, Jacob, Billy, Mike, Jessica, The Volturie, Rosalie, etc) are negitive about her choices, epecially when it comes to loving Edward and how they all try to make the choices for her.


I know it in my heart
what I believe in
though others do not.

The choices I make
are mine and mine only,
it is not others who live my life.

So be it
if I loose along the way
and fall heart first.

At least I know
I was happy in the end.

And who knows
I'll prove others wrong.

Of course my most abvious choice would be Folks High School from the Twilight Series. I just think it would be cool to go to a school where there are vampires.

My 2nd choice would be Hogwarts. Magic. That's all I have to say.

3rd and last would be not to go near any high school again. My high school years were okay, but still not the most enjoyable.

It's moments like this when I wish Jasper Hale was real. I could really use him to help make me feel better with is control emotions.

There are moments when it hits me and I'm depressed. I mean I'm happy that I've gotten my photos back signed by Robert Pattinson and that Twilight will be here in a week. But I'm depressed because I feel like no matter how hard I try career wise, I haven't gotten a interview or a teaching job yet. It seems like almost every month or so someone I know has gotten a teaching job or at least an interview while I'm stuck here subbing. As much as I love subbing, I want to have my own classroom and know where I will be everyday instead of sometimes wondering if I will have a hard class today or not.

Life sucks sometimes, but at least I can go into my Twilight Happy Place and be okay.

 
This is really hard for me. In no order here they are.

Who We Are- Lifehouse
Twilight Movie Soundtrack- Various Artists
No Shoes, No Shirt, No Problem- Kenny Chesney
Continuum- John Mayer
Dreaming Out Loud- OneRepublic
Soul & Story: Volume One- Enation


That's all I have for right now. I'll have to think about the other 4.

A Crazy Thing Called Life

Not really. I just read The Giving Tree yesterday while I subbed in a kindergarten class. I loved the book as a child, and still do to this day. It's one of my favorite childhood books. Of course there are moments when I'm reading a book to kids and I read a line and think of a different meaning then it was meant to mean. I'm so happy kids don't yet have that kind of sense of thought yet.

Okay I know that this was over a month ago, but I decided to answer this question. Reading is extremely important to me. I'm a teacher and it's my job to motivate people to read. After high school and when I went to college, I didn't have a whole lot of time to read, especially when I started working in 2005. From that point to 2007, I had only read a few books and most of them where short children books. 

As of lately though, I've been on a reading kick. Since May I have read 12 books. 4 of those books, The Twilight Series, I have read twice. I have to say those are my most favorite books I have read. I would recommend them to other for sure. They are so addicting that when I first read them I was engrossed that I finished the whole series in less then a week. It's a story of forbidden love between a human girl and vampire. I'm so crazy about the whole series, even the movie that's coming out next month. I just know it's going to be great.

Right now I'm currently reading The Host which is by Stephenie Meyer, who also wrote the Twilight Series I love so much. This story is a little different then Twilight though. Twilight is mainly aimed at teen readers, though it appeals to all ages. The Host is Stephenie's first adult novel. It's about a series of alians who are taking over the human races. These alians, called souls, are being injected into human hosts and slowly taking over their bodies, mind too. In this story, one soul is inserted into a adult human woman. The soul should have been able to take over the human fairly quickly, but for some strange reason, the soul can still hear and feel what ever it is the woman is thinking. I've only read about 4 chapters so far, but it's a pretty instresting book. It probably won't take over Twilight's spot as my favorite, though. lol

20 Facts About Me That People Do Not Know

1. I'm very emotional and take things to heart.
2. I HATE it when people talk about me when I'm not there. I don't care if you're saying nice things about me or not. Unless you want to hire me for a job, don't talk about me.
3. I worry alot, but try to stay positive even when things seem hopeless.
4. I'm a big dreamer.
5. I hide myself in music and poetry when I'm depressed.
6. I HATE it when people tell me that I'm shy. I know that I am and I work on it everyday. There's no need to tell me.
7. I enjoy spending time by myself.
8. I've written over 20 poems.
9. Lifehouse is my most favorite band of all time. Their music is healing.
10. I don't like to be late for anything.
11. I cry alot.
12. Even the smallest things can make me happy. Such as hearing my favorite songs the radio or drinking my favorite coffee.
13. Pumpkin Spice is my favorite coffee.
14. Brushing my dog Lucky helps to destress me.
15. I HATE it when people don't act like they're listening to me when I'm talking. It makes me feel like what I'm saying is not important.
16. I secretly sometimes wonder if it would have been better for me to have become an Interior Designer rather then a Teacher. Maybe I would have a job by now.
17. I tend to sometimes listen to a song I really like 10 or more times straight.
18. I'm very independent.
19. I'm very creative.
20. I'm very easily depressed. Such as the littlest things can make me happy, the littlest things can make me really sad. Such as not having a real job yet, having a bad day subbing, something I really look forward to being canceled, feeling like no one is listening to me, etc.

So just a few days ago I had my first Vampire Dream. It was strange like most of my dreams are and even sort of nightmare like. But even so I enjoyed it oddly enough. Anywho here's how it went.

It started off I was in a house with the Jon and Kate Plus 8 kids. One of the kids, I think maybe Hannah or Leah was crying and I picked them up and started to comfort them. Then the dream switched and we were at a store. I think I might have been a child because I most certianly wasn't myself. I walked into the restroom to wash off something I had written on my hand. I scrubbed and scrubbed and it wouldn't come off. So I gave up and walked out. Next think I know I'm in another house and I feel like a vampire. I'm waiting on my date to come pick me up. I know that he is human and doesn't know that I am a vampire. But that didn't really matter since I was vegaterian vampire and did not drink human blood. Just as my date pulled up the door, I told him to wait a few more minutes as I had to finish getting ready. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. To my surprise my face was red. Like blood was draining from the inside of my face. I knew it was something serious so I rushed into Charlise's office. He told me he would help me just as two other vampires from our coven came in. I ran to the guy and told him to tell my date that I wasn't feeling well and to leave. That's when I woke up.

The dream made no sense at all and it kinda was based off of Twilight with the whole vegaterian vampire thing, dating a human, and Charlise being in it. But why did it come after the fact that I had dreamt about the kids from Jon and Kate Plus 8? Hmmmmm...

The pain in my heart is the one emotion I feel more then anything.

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Here's a poem that I wrote about a week ago. It's about Edward. 

Track Listing

1. Strom- Lifehouse 
If I could see you 
Everything would be alright 
If I see you
This darkness would turn to light. 

2. Name- The Goo Goo Dolls
Cause all the dreams 
You never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way. 

3. Let That Be Enough- Switchfoot 
I wish I had what I need
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

4. Believe- Hanson
I want to believe 
Some to believe 
I would live only just to believe 
I love to believe 
It's not only me that longing only just to believe

5. Running Away- Midnight Hour 
Try to understand me 
Try to understand when I say
I can't stay

6. Life Is Beautiful- Vega4 
Life is beautiful 
But it's complicated 
We barley make it 

7. Simon- Lifehouse 
Locked in side the only place
Where they will leave you alone 

8. I'm Movin On- Rascal Flatts 

9. What I Cannot Change- Leann Rimes

 So I haven't read the articles, but I know the gist of them and I have to say they SUCK!!!! MTV is writing stupid ass articles that total diss Twilight and it's characters. They are comparing it to Harry Potter, when except for the fact that both books are popular beyond belief and have Robert Pattinson, they have nothing in common. 

I now refuse to ever watch MTV again until they applogize for their crappy headiness. 

Here's a poem
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I don't know why 
You have to always compare and contrast, 
The things I love, 
They are far different as the eyes can see, 
And great in their own unique way, 
One is not better then the other, 
No matter what you try to get us to see, 
I am on team Switzerland, 
And I refuse to choose sides
Unless that side is aganist you,
And all your stupid articles